Am I shiny? Alluring? Do you imagine owning such brilliance? Attempting to represent yourself as me, in some way. Showing the world your value through me. Through my beauty. Popularity. Am I beautiful? Poetic? Do you see me kissing every wound you have? Loving you down to your core, as you know I can. Forgiving…

Untakeable, unbreakable, immeasurable, inconceivable, unfakeable. the holes this world has sliced in me is how I make my music baby the wind whistles my hollows trauma sharpened my claws durable, unkillable I look like a monster? I’m just a responder beastly but you need me Tell me I’m evil unless I’m defenseless then of course…

There is nothing you can do to escape the loss that fills life. You will love things, people, places, ideas, only to have them ripped from you, at some point. You will come crashing to your knees, in grief. You cannot escape the ruthless hands of life, but you can lean in to her all…

I love her. I love the hardest parts of her to love. I love her ruthless hands as they beat away my striving, and lying. I love her untameable senseless ways. I love her in her paradoxes, her madness I release when I never try to defeat Her I can love her here. I can…

every heartbreak, every betrayal  opens me wider  I’m a love titan  I can’t be broken  All I do is open  every contraction leads to expansion  tell me all hope is lost  I’ll become the sun  and ask if it’s hot  tell me you can’t see any light  I’ll open my mouth and breathe fire  tell…

I spill my heart out, and they drink it in. They just wanna win. Loves a game, to them. And I don’t wanna play. I know I could manipulate, I could hold back. But that’s the type of shit I hate. My ex fiance used to say “Your heart goes straight to your lips” Why…

I’m not the place you can go to run away from all your accountability, I’m not the one who will drown out your self hatred with my adoration. I won’t fix you, and I will get mad when you exchange your integrity for soulless gain. I am more then this absolutely stunningly beautiful physical body…

This is a much needed share, coming from someone who has spent countless hours, years, finances, experiences, on learning the nature of abuse and abusers. I’ve studied under leading world experts on narcissism, read countless books, talked to therapists, soul searched spiritually and followed my gut. This is what i’ve found. From emotional abuse, manipulation,…

Hear me out, throughout the ages and all over cultures, beauty is seen widely differently. I mean strikingly so. In some durations of history, things we think of as downright ugly presently, were redeemed as the highest in beauty standards. So if its something that’s always changing so drastically based on time period, place, culture….

You wanna know what happened to me when I started outting abusers on my Instagram, you wanna know what happened when I finally really called people out for their behavior? When I stopped the disassociated unconditional love and forgiveness and decided to be AUTHENTIC. You wanna know what the defense was? You can probably guess…

I find it baffling the guilt that lives in survivors bodies, as if we are actually the ones carrying our abusers shame. When frankly, they are the ones that should be ashamed. As if enduring injustice is an embarrassment and somehow our fault? It seems so… Infantile. Yet it is such a prevelant subtle and…