when you are pulled to me, find patience with yourself.
I will be learning from you, while you are me.
I do not permit pedestaling, or hierarchy here.
Nor should you take anything I say or do literally.
There will be an air of “it is and it isn’t”
and
“everything and nothing all at once”
this is medicine that goes beyond perceiving.
I carry paradox and clarity as if they are not opposites.
I am friend of madness.
My art, my presence, my human parts, and every expression of mine, are potential keys.
Not Answers.
Those are and have always been, yours. Specific to you.
Your self validation will be encouraged.
Your power consistently placed back in your hands if you try to hand it off to me.
Preface your experience with me, to visiting Baba Yaga.
I will not fit into any of your conceptualized versions of me.
I may be cryptic, I may be extensive. I may appear, I may disappear.
My commitment is going to be to myself, what I feel, what I hear, and what I know, first.
This will be quite rattling for those operating within other programs of what love is.
I do not view this world through any of the known perceptions of power and beauty.
Yours will have no affect on me capable of taking me away from myself. Ever.
I do not care about fame, fortune, spiritual hierarchies, or patriarchal beauty standards or any hierarchal systems. You will not crush me into yours.
I only care for the truth. And its felt presence at all times.
If you attempt to manipulate me, in any way, there will be consequences.
For I will never attempt to manipulate you. So I do not allow it.
I have been initiated, trained, and built in various fortitudes throughout my entire life by beings, aliens, human souls in the in between, elemental spirits and knowers, lived experiences, deities, a select few ‘alive’ flesh humans, and many un-nameable and impossible to list beings and experiences that have been thoroughly working me, loving me, and holding me my entire life.
In the ways that have been natural to them. Which has varied.
There is no limit to my power, but there is to my person.
I aim to help you see this too.
What happens between us, has no limits.
You will get the energy you approach me with, so do not approach me with greedy misconduct.
And do not think if I do not acknowledge your attempts to manipulate me that I do not see them.
I do.
There is room here however for what humans call imperfection, it is welcomed, seen, heard, and held.
My requirements are honesty with self, and honesty with me.
I will not be existing outside of my humanity, rather front and center in it.
I will show you all my “imperfection” as it is a form of medicine for you, not a chance for you to raise yourself above me in an illusion of power over me.
You will never have this.
Consequences will come to those that seek this with me.
My aching vulnerability is a healing salve to drizzle over your own, in beatific validation and tenderizing.
My presence is known to be immensely triggering, it is not my responsibility to hold you through this,
It is not my responsibility to comfort you through my existence.
I suggest you seek elsewhere for this.
My devotion is to the truth, not your feelings.
This is not to say your feelings do not matter, they do.
They are of the utmost importance.
I deeply respect, honor, and love you on every level, and as such am communicating extensively and giving you the ability to make an informed decision on if you feel approaching me is the best thing for you.
I simply also love myself, and what I hold this way.
As such my commitment is immoveable, innate, and instinctual.
your logic will do you little good here, and your opening will bring you to tears.
I love you, more then you can comprehend.
As such I have taken myself through experiences that have nearly broken me, to test my commitment to the truth felt in my body, moment to moment.
I show my love in my devotion to it, not my abandonment of it to comfort anyone.
I love you.
If you still wish to approach this oracle, do so knowing you have been adamantly communicated with, warned, and given agency over your own choice to experience her.
Nannamodibi.
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