on my cold hardwood floors, in front of my alter.
I laid in the fetal position.
Gripping my raggedy yellow blanket, my one constant and consistent non-abusive, truly understanding source of love I’ve had in this life.
my true family in a blanket that was once yellow, and once devoid of holes.
Now filled with them as I am.
dry heaving tears, eyes dripping.
I let it out.
I made peace with what was real, in that moment.
this, this agonizing pain only I understand.
because its mine.
the echoes of my cries bounced off the emptiness, and reflected back to me.
finally I could see.
I was always the somebody I needed.
my songs like prophecies, just for me.
once upon a time, there was a girl.
who felt her pain to heal it.
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