break free from being used

They tell you love is self sacrifice, they tell you the more you give of yourself the more you must love them. They make slavery look like romance, and I mean that in every way.

They make it look like the person who loves more is weak and taken advantage of, and the cold removed one getting all the advantages.

I think that’s because we got love all wrong, we forgot what it actually is.

I think love is the refusal to compromise oneself, what you need, what you want, who you are.

A valiant “No” in a sea of forced yeses.

Well I gave everything I had, I emptied myself for people who never had any intention of giving what I did.

And I believed myself mighty, I believed myself more loving, good, righteous.

And that’s exactly what they feed us.

“Enslave your soul and mind into a wrong idea of being a good person”

I’ve realized mother nature actually says: “Be valiantly seflish, conceited even, like the entire world revolves around you.

Because yours does.

And it isn’t until you taste true selfishness, soul deep, that you will have absolutely anything to offer.

Your illusions do nothing for this world, your slavery branded with righteousness wont do a damn thing.

Your whole “being in service” spiritual persona.
Not really doing much in reality.

I’ve chosen over and over again, the people who would shatter me.

Like a subconscious lure.

And I think we always do.

So that eventually, dead or alive, we see the truth.

Love was NEVER holding on when everything in me screamed let go.

Love was NEVER giving when everything in me told me to take.

Love was NEVER forgiving the unforgivable.

Love was NEVER holding my tongue.

Love was NEVER listening to there logic over my own feelings and instincts.

Love was NEVER at the cost of loving me.

See the thing is, if love is this kind and beautiful thing and never wants to hurt anyone ever at all and seeks to heal,

then why the fuck do you think love would be okay with you putting yourself through so much hell for it?

love wouldn’t want that for you.

So if it isn’t selfish, if it isn’t fully aligned with what you actually want, it’s not love.

its self betrayal all dressed in holy clothes.

7 responses to “break free from being used”

  1. Maurício Avatar
    Maurício

    I liked. Congratulations on your success

  2. Ed Aller Avatar

    irony stalks me as words appear more sincere,
    in the faded reflections of cracked rear-view mirrors,
    i remain in the presence of shadows and sinners,
    where hope is devoured among candle-lit dinners,
    inspiration eludes me, for this ever-long minute,
    enveloped by the same sorrow that cast my heart within it,
    and i seek no redemption from souls found above,
    nor revelations, nor judgment, nor love.

    beauty just mocks me as it floats in the clear,
    as it sings in the whispers i find too faint to hear,
    it taunts me while smirking within the bluest of deep,
    and haunts me while lurking amidst of the saddest of sleep,
    it recaptures the essence of what remains unfulfilled,
    and dangles it in the face of the very hope that it killed.
    it now serves as a reminder, that there is no love blinder,
    than the myth that is shattered, just shortly after you find her.

    regret has now paved, the silent ways to today,
    as it hums to the tune, of words you just don’t simply say,
    i remain in the torment, in the shallow of gray,
    in the lack of your lovely sense of disarray,
    i now revise scripts and rehearsals,
    for the most tragic of plays,
    and the most heartfelt discussions,
    that we could of had on the way.

    1. ivywolfesworld Avatar

      Woah….. Who are you? This is one of the most beautiful things I’ve read it awhile.

  3. Laura Josepha Avatar
    Laura Josepha

    Please let me know how can I subscribe to this?

  4. Chaz Farkass Avatar
    Chaz Farkass

    It takes getting fucked over a few times to gain that knowlage tolearn never to compromise yourself for what you want. When that realization comes ( as eventually that person that comes in your life ) it’s glorious

  5. Jerry Avatar
    Jerry

    Be a friend

  6. Scott Surbrook Avatar
    Scott Surbrook

    Actually very well said.
    Sometimes the worst thing you can do is continue to hold on when letting go is the best thing for you.
    I learned that the hard way.

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